so listen, listen.

its sad because, you are probably more insecure than I am, and I know you're not all about playing for one team, so why don't you just tell me? I'll still love you just like I love you now. I love you now.

holly hox, forget me nots. holly hox. forget me. not. holly, hox. forget me.

the doctor, he said so, he told me every skyline and every night spent alone are tearing me apart.

please visit me @ vox. thank you.

AND I KNOW THAT WITHOUT YOU IS SOMETHING THAT I COULD NEVER DO

I was never overly excited about thanksgiving, but I am very excited about it this year. I am excited to hear my forever sarcastic aunts remarks about their eldest niece's choice to pierce her face and tattoo her body, and my uncle fight them off and back me up. I am excited to see my cat and dog and eat mamaaa's coooookin. mmmm. I am excited to play wii and watch shitty talk shows with lora all day long and to visit my job. And of course I'm excited to see mah gurrrlllfriendsss!

You are not who I thought you were. But I am very used to that. And I told you it would happen and I told you it was happening, but you still denied it. Yet I'm always here and you're always gone. Thank you.

Road trip to PA this weekend with Candace to see Catherine and (hopefully) Katy. CANT wait.

this place is driving me out of my fucking mind.

this is not an exit, rocks tonic juice magic, see you, coconut, wednesday the third, radio, what went wrong, don't know why, you vandal, deciding, holly hox forget me nots, she, freakish, stay, three miles down, take our cars now, third engine, eulogy, hold, jessie and my whetstone.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!dffffffhkjadgja;dlgkj;k jgoeijfwoejif34908gh94ogh04ginvqbn350

if i could say "there's something that has to be said here" i would say it. the void that isn't filled. i wanted to kill her there and save you.

hey ADAM cut your hair and make another tell all your friends (even tho weeeeee all know i love you and lal lthe albums you make anyway) but seriousluy tell all your friends.

it's really good here.

i can't ever stay happy

if i can be saved show me the way, help me help myself baby.

BYE
(i hope you made the right choice i hope you made the right choice i hope you made the right choice)

this is weirdd.

sylvie alyssa and catherine have all left. so all female companionship has now left. my last day of work is tomorrow. my last day of FOUR YEARS of work is tomorrow. i've been there since I was fourteen. I can't even remember anything else I specific I did when I was fourteen. It seems like forever ago. my car goes to volkswagon next friday since when the humidity is above 50% or it so much as drizzles it becomes a death trap; after that i wont see it unless i come home from purchase and get it. which will be never cause im sick of paying for gas. I move in Sunday, start classes wednesday? i think. I still have a million things to buy, pack, do laundry. Three doctors appointments, haircut, lunch with the g'ma. I'm very excited though, just busy, and a little stressed. But mostly just excited.

why can't I get a good bagel anywhere? i live in fucking new york.

4 AM, no sleep

but you friends, you mean the world to me.

repent all your sins

i chose to feel it and you couldnt choose


live through this and you won't look back...


i'm stuck in my mind in this environment i want to speed up time.

i lurve lindsay lohan.

I'm glad things aren't how they used to be.